la mejor decisión de mi vida

its bittersweet writing to you all this last time as hermana porter. there’s a whole lot in my heart right now. my heart is bursting with love and gratitude — for this beautiful gospel that I know is true, the beautiful people of Santiago, the experiences that I have seen and been apart of these past 18 months and for my Savior for allowing me to serve Him, to wear His name on my chest and in my heart and for granting me the means to serve and love as He would and as He does.

reflecting on it all, my mind goes to 2 corinthians 9:15 ; ‘thanks be unto God for his unspeakable gift.’ of course the scripture references to Christ, but I can’t help but think of the unspeakable gift that my Heavenly Father has given me. that in spite of all my imperfections, and flaws, and weaknesses he has allowed me to stand in His place. to speak as He would speak. to love as He would love. maybe I have never seen Him physically, but I have felt Him and His guiding hands, and for me, that is enough.
He knows the way, because HE IS the way. If we allow Him to guide our paths, he will take us to beautiful places. trusting in Him and living His gospel is the way to peace and to a real, raw, tangible, lasting happiness
I love you all.
nos vemos en oakland babyyyyy
con mucho amor
hermana porter

the final leg

mommas’ order- she asked me to finish these last 3 weeks strong and write a group email and momma knows best so here we are!

3 weeks away from finishing up this chapter of my life, and honestly I don’t feel like they’re actually going to kick me out of this country and send me back up to CA. I JUST GOT HERE. hahaha. but everyone is telling me otherwise.
we’ve got a LOT happening these days— miracles are abounding and I am in love with this life I am living here in santiago and just trying to soak it all in
— my last saturday in the mission we have 2 baptisms – Marcela and Hernan! Marcela is a sweet little girl from Venezuela and Hernan is a cute little grandpa. we’ve been working with them some for quite some time now and their growth is so beautiful. after church this past sunday we had a lesson right in front of the baptism font and the spirit was ON FIRE. it reminds me once again that this is the LORD’s work and we are simply just instruments. if we have the faith to turn ourselves over to Him, if we give our heart to Him, He makes us so much more. I have seen His grace in action, and I know it is real
something funny —
yesterday, I was writing in my journal and I decided to light a candle to set the vibes. we live in an apartment with 2 other hermanas and they were saying a companionship prayer while I was trying to light the candle. I lit the candle, and the match broke in half and the lit candle fell on my skirt and caught on fire, (not the first time it has happnened in the mission either lol)…hahahaha you all know me, I started screaming and the hermanas praying freaked out and couldn’t pray because they were laughing hahaha. but all good, it wasn’t as bad as the first time I lit my blouse on fire lol. something things still haven’t changed here haha
a thought —
I have always thought of this mission of mine as a relay race. There are 18 legs in the race, and each month is a lap around the track. According to this scene, I have been running for a while now. I am on the final leg, and I have got to give it all I got. I am almost there, and I can’t stop now. But the comfort I feel is that my Savior is not just on the sideline telling me which obstacle to jump, which way to turn, the speed etc, NO, He is running with me! We are doing it together. It makes me think of a quote from Elder Holland, something along the lines of ‘He doesn’t just need people who will die for this gospel, but Heavenly Father needs people who will LIVE for this gospel. Who will run the race, who will make it all the way to the tape’ and I LOVE THAT. I want to live for this gospel. I want to give all that I have, and remember where true strength comes from – my Savior. The race hasn’t always been easy, its been ugly and hard a lot of the time, but there is beauty in it all and I love that I get to be apart of it and He trusts me, He trusts US enough to take part in something so great and eternal.
I love you lots!!! thanks for being the best home team
hermana porter

4 de feb

hola hola hola hola como están

I told myself that I only have a few weeks left to take advantage of writing emails so I gotta just do it haha.
these weeks have been some of the very best. I’m still in La Florida, and you know when you’ve met someone or you’re in a specific place and you just know that THIS is where I need to be, this is who I need to be with? and it all just clicks? everything is just so natural? ya, that’s how I feel out here in LF. maybe we’re not having mountains of baptisms like other areas, maybe the progress of those we’re teaching is a bit slower, but everything is just right. I know without a doubt in my heart that the Lord’s plan is perfect and it is His. He aligns our paths so perfectly and so precisely.
the other day we were knocking doors (more like yelling ALOOOOO hahaha) and no one was answering. it was hot, and the chilenos were taking advantage of staying indoors with their air conditioning and big ol glass of coca cola ha. I turned around and saw this young kid walking down the street with a soccer ball. I just felt in my heart ‘girl go. talk with him’ we stroke up a conversation, his name is Luis, he’s 15 years old, and dreams of being a futbolista. and he loves God. we talked a bit about the family, about our relationship with Heavenly Father but then off he ran to go play soccer. we shoved a plan of salvation pamphlet in his hand and yelled ‘hasta luego’ and that was that. we had a hard time finding him for a while, but the other day, we were walking in front of a little supermarket in our area, and we find luis and his grandpa sitting in front! he told us that he had read about the plan of salvation and loved it. he had even put it under his pillow so he woudln’t lost it!! haha, so sweet. we talked some more, he opened up to us that he had been adopted, and family had always been something super important. at the end, he looked at us and said ‘I want to get there. I want to be there with my family. in the celestial kingdom’
it was just one of those moments that filled my heart and reconfirmed that our Father’s love is real and perfect and fitting to each one of us. and to seek Him out, that love fills us, according to our needs and our circumstances
I love this time. I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT. even when old men you’re teaching confess their love for you, even when you’re running around like a little tomato because of the heat, this work is good and it is His
I love you allllll, and miss you lots
hna porter

i’m alive and THRIVING

hi hello perdon for not writing in who knows how many months

but yes, I am alive and well (just really really hot down here in santiago) but thriving and just really so so happy
here’s a quick little update on my life down here : so i’ve been in my new area, La Florida for a while now and I think I’ll be finishing the mission here CRAZY RIGHT
God works in wonderful ways – here’s a quick back story. in my anterior area, I only had 2 transfers there, I felt like I got put in, and then taken out. we worked HARD and saw miracles every day. the work was flowing and I was in love with my area and then BOOM transfers. can’t lie, I was frustrated and a little hurt. but Heavenly Father teaches me and teaches each one of us every single day that if we just keep doing as He asks us to and keep ourselves humble, He blesses us, and we CAN gain a deeper and more eternal perspective. I remember my first night here in my area and we were walking the streets contacting and I was still thinking about my last area I had just left but then the impression (GIRL contact that man) ran through mind. I didn’t think about it, I didn’t even have time to. It was this man smoking, covered in tattoos and he looked far from anyone who had interest in talking about God at the moment. but I put those thoughts aside and followed thorugh. that man’s name is Carlos. and Carlos is going to be baptized in just 2 weeks! its amazing to see the miracles that come to play if we trust in His plan, His timing, and follow though with the impressions of the Spirit.
His plan is and always has been so much greater than ours. that has something I have seen time and time again in these 16 months
funny story – the other week we were knocking doors and I saw this cute little house with a pretty golden retriever. I told hermana hernandez ‘yeah vamos’ so I walk up to the house and shout (because that’s how you contact houses here in south america) and this dog comes running at me full force and jumps up on me and starts eating my skirt but he was aiming for my leg… almost got eaten alive these dogs are WILD.
I know my Savior lives. I know that He loves us and that love is personal and real for each one of us. I know that He has the power to heal and only He can fill us when we’re empty and in need of something so much more. I put my trust in Him I put my faith in Him I love Him with all that I have. — look for Him this week. He is here
I love you all and miss you tons
make it a good week 💛
hasta luegooooo
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With Hermana Hale at transfers
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Photos of the week

Hermana Porter with her new companion, Hermana Hernandez from Colombia. They are serving in La Florida.

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Summer was able to return to Las Condes last Saturday for Francisco’s baptism (read about him in the previous post)DSC09525.jpegDSC09523.jpg

Hey hello holaaaaa

Amigos míos!

How are you all doing? its been an eternity since I’ve written you all (surprise nothing new here ha) but better late than never right?
so I am still here in Las Condes, working working working, but now with Hermana Kelly! Some of you may have heard, we came out on the mission at the same time and she actually was the first person I met in the SLC airport waiting to board my flgiht before this whole adventure began and BOY DO I LOVE HER. we hit it off from the second we met and we had always gushed in emails and zone conferences ‘someday we’ll be comps sí o sí’ it was always a dream of mine but never did I really believe it would happen! but here we are, and God is just oh so good
here are some highlights from these past few weeks
— Imagine a man wandering with dreads down to his hips, traveling all over south america for music festivals, a man who loves his marijuana. a man who felt lost and in despair with not a lot of direction. Now picture one night 2 sister missionaries walking home one night and that man meeting up and getting to know each other on a street corner and talking. This man told those 2 missionaries that he had had a vision about joseph smith and the book of mormon and he knew it was true. imagine that man telling those missionaries that he NEEDED to meet with them and learn more about this book. now picture that man in his first lesson with the missionaries bringing his book of mormon, all marked up in colors and notes and testifying that its true. that man walking into sacrament meeting on a sunday morning just glowing. that same man accepting a baptism date. that same man changing his life, but really letting the Savior change his life. That’s Francisco. God really does prepare His children to recieve the Savior’s prepared gospel
— Ines! Our cute little best friend who is 80 years old and will be baptized this saturday! She has been catholic all her life and taking this step of faith and choosing to follow the Savior into the waters of baptism was HARD. but her love for the Savior outweighed all doubt and fear. Our love for Him truly dispells all fear
— getting home each night to fill in our area book and just ending up lying on the floor having heart to hearts for what seems like hours with hermana kelly, I get pumped just to walk up each morning and do some yoga and eat breakfast together, its puro amor y carettes here in las condes jajaja
really, what I feel here is just lots of happy moments all compiled into one. I have learned that a lot of times in life we’re out looking for the big gold chunks, but really we just need to be searching for the small gold flakes. happiness comes in all shapes and forms and even on the days when we’re exhausted and drained, its alright. we’re learning and we’re growing. and that’s why we’re here! We need to feel it all. And on the days when we feel like we’re not enough, or we’re too much, we’re growing closer to our Savior and experimenting a little bit of what He felt and what He did for us and what He continues to give so freely
les quiero muchisimoooooo. en serio!
count your blessings this week & choose to spread and grow your love a bit more with each coming day – that’s my goal for the week
con amor
hermana porter


helloooooo my dear friends and family!
here we are again, my group emails are so scattered I feel like every time I sit down to write, a million and one things have happened since the last and I just feel lost. haha but that’s nothing new 🙂
well, we had transfers 2 weeks ago, and I finished training hermana Araya and am now in Las Condes as a sister  trainer leader! c.r.a.z.y. but all things good 🙂
Las Condes is NEXT LEVEL. It’s like calabasas every where we go and it wouldn’t surprise me if I run into kendall or kylie jenner because everyone here is like a top model. our ward mission leader drives a jaguar and the ‘homes’ really are mansions. even the famous futbol player, Alexis Sanchez lives in our ward boundaries… to put it simply, its wealthy. To be real, our zone has a rep in the mission.  Because its so wealthy, a lot of the members and missionaries comment on how difficult it must be to work and to teach in an area like this… and I came out here hoping for the best, but with all those comments in the back of my head.
BUT, that’s not the case! hermana zacarias and I have seen countless blessings every single day. we had a baptism this past thursday with Amarilys, our cute sister from Cuba and on Saturday I was able to head back to tobalaba to be apart of Eddy’s baptism! its true what my dad always taught me ‘the harder the sacrifice, the sweeter the reward’ – because we are seeing just so many fruits from our labors #blessingsonblessingsonblessings
this saturday we had our ward party for las fiestas patrias! I ate empanadas and danced la cueca, and beat all the other girls in the sack races (shout out grandmas easter parties, all my skills came in CLUTCH 🙂 ) and just felt real chilenaaaaa even though I still have my thick gringa accent and all the chilenos love to tell me so jajaja
I am SO grateful for my trials and weaknesses. I am grateful for them, because they are drawing me nearer to my Savior. I know Him better. He is my best friend. I am using His Atonement in my daily life. I am growing – and if we’re not growing and stretching and changing, then what’s the point?
well I gotta go but I just want to send some lovin up north! you guys mean so much to meeeeeee💛
con cariñoooooo
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With Amarylis
With Eddy
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With Amarylis, Fabiola & Hermana Zacarias